I used to be pretty focused on mileage, both ultrarunning and fastpacking. No doubt there was a degree of chest-thumping involved in this. Many amazing trips were had as a result (and no doubt many still to come). But as someone who has been meditating regularly for many years now, I find myself exploring the mindset and overlap between this practice and backpacking.
I wonder if the same restlessness that plagues many of us in daily life- the mind’s constant tendency to jump around, to multi-task, the tendency towards restlessness…I wonder if this is not the same thing that has in part driven me to hike far and fast.
In relation to meditation and life, I believe the act of stopping, really stopping, is supremely important, taking time to carve out space to just be. To let go of the constant twitching of both mind and body. Why do we have such a hard time being still and not doing anything, whether it’s a Tuesday after work or on a backpacking trip? Even our “not doing” is typically characterized by intense distraction. I’ve been on trips where it seemed members of my party (including myself) were in what was almost a downright panic to keep moving and keep doing things.
My last trip in the Sierra was a 4 night solo. I spent the first day and a half getting about 25 miles in…and then spent the next 3 nights in one single spot. I didn’t see or talk to anyone and largely stayed in a 1/2 mile radius of my camp, probably closer. I sat a lot. And then I moved to a new spot and sat even more. I sat in the morning and I sat in the middle of the night. It was a deeply satisfying trip. And I have enjoyed developing a relationship with a particular place.
I’m very interested in a similar trip this coming summer, but extending the time in one spot to around 7-8 days. I enjoy the headspace created by settling into an area, exploring on a smaller scale, but mainly creating the time and space to just be somewhere with absolutely no sense of urgency…for anything. This is an increasingly precious thing to me.
Local overnights, which I’m fortunate enough to do nearly weekly, have been increasingly involving relatively short walks, directly out my front door with no car involved, to a host of local spots where…I just settle in and sit for an evening. These trips aren’t so much about the moving, but about getting somewhere quiet and wild and not moving.
The business of miles, of setup and takedown, packing and unpacking, camp chores and fussing…It all seems so mindlessly restless to me at times.
I still get out and do miles. I like the physicality of it. But I find myself increasingly drawn in this other direction. I recently purchased a new load hauler pack. Not for big miles so much, but for long stays.