I've been thinking about the way my ultralight gear list says rather more about me than I realise. After many conversations in hostels, pubs, cafes, and hiker hangouts around the world what I realised is that there are some things I always have a back up for. And so do other people.
In my rucsac I always have three ways to light a fire – a teeny tiny Bic lighter, a SOL sparker, and Storm proof matches. I think I maybe read that Jack London story about the fire when I was at an impressionable age (every year to date), or it may be the memory of backwoods camps where we had to light a fire with two matches.
I guess what it reveals is that I fear being too cold. Really fear it. Will do anything to avoid it. This is probably grounded in the experience when I was sixteen and waiting with my dad at a bus stop for over an hour in sub zero temps, after I'd been at a swimming team meeting and had wet hair. I got frost bite or frost nip in the edges of both ears. Man that really hurts – really really hurts. And I never want to be that cold again. And yes my ears have crinkly edges now!
So my rucsac, on even a day hike, always has an emergency bivi in it, a way to make a hot drink and hot water bottle, a spare warm layer, and a tiny emergency blanket just in case I'm with someone who was well under prepared!
I've met people with all kinds of food an excess for the walk they are on until the next supply point, because they fear hunger. I met someone who had four ways to purify water – they'd had a very bad experience in India, and feared the incapacitation again.
I don't mind knowing I'm afraid of something, and knowing that I have the gear to deal with that fear is helpful, even if it means a few extra grams. When I read the gear lists on here I wonder about what they say or what you think they might say about you, I hope you don't mind if they reveal some deeper concerns, we all take ourselves into the hills even if we hope to lose something there.

