Falling Stones at Two Goat Camp
Nov 22, 2022 at 10:14 am #3765956Andrew MarshallBPL Member
@andrewsmarshallLocale: Tahoe basin by way of the southern Appalachians
Companion forum thread to: Falling Stones at Two Goat Camp
Andrew Marshall’s account of a Wonderland Trail thru-hike at the intersection of permits, wildfires, the birth of his son, and trauma.Nov 22, 2022 at 11:04 am #3765960David HartleyBPL Member
@dhartleyLocale: Western NY
Wow! This was an incredibly powerful read. I hope the gift of your precious son pulls you and your wife out of the mist. Children, especially babies and toddlers, are Zen – their immediate needs can pull us out of the deepest mist into the living moment. They won’t settle for anything less ;-)Nov 22, 2022 at 11:59 am #3765983Steven BBPL Member
Incredible. I often wonder why I hike and backpack, and this gets at some of the explanation eloquently. Well said, photographed, and illustrated. Thanks for this, and congrats to you and your family.Nov 22, 2022 at 1:16 pm #3765993HopesterBPL Member
EXCELLENT READ!!! I have two little girls that bring me a joy that is unlike anything else I’ve ever experienced. Children bring the highest highs, but also the lowest lows…But a gift (being a mother) I wouldn’t trade for anything else. I was the girl that was NEVER going to get married or have kids (that would ruin my life lol). An awesome guy asked me to marry him and then out of the blue I got pregnant on an IUD…Baby number one came along and two years later number 2. These two girls, now 2 and 4, have helped me broaden my horizon, taught me new things and scared the S&%T out of me. It hasn’t all been pain free, but so worth it. I cant thank you enough for that great read Andrew. Enjoy the new opportunities your son brings to your life.Nov 24, 2022 at 5:19 pm #3766171Kimberly WersalBPL Member
@kwersalLocale: Western Colorado
Wow–I thought it pretty poetic, actually. Not everyone can share their emotions so powerfully. Amazing photography, and the pen and watercolor sketches are lovely. I would buy one anyday!Nov 25, 2022 at 8:27 am #3766201CarcajouBPL Member
@carcajouLocale: Pacific Northwest (Washington State for my wife and British Columbia for me)
A brilliant and insightful account of dealing with trauma and the sanctity of mountains in wilderness that helps some of us deal with trauma and tragedy. I lost my wife to cancer nearly a decade ago and after being her caregiver for her final two years I spent significant chunks of time trekking in high and remote places around this glorious globe.
Grieving is an adventure in it’s own right. It is different for everyone. Shortly after my wife died I stumbled across a book called ‘Finding Jim’. It is a personal account by his widow of dealing with the loss of her husband, Jim Haberl, a Canadian mountaineer. I thought at the time that it took her so long to grieve. Some nine years after my wife dying I came to realize that for some of us the process carries on for a long time, maybe forever. I don’t know.
What I do know is the time I spent and spend in the mountains, often alone, is critical to my grieving and healing.
I have moved on. I have remarried and once again have been blessed by an amazing lady who thinks I am alright to share a life together.
Rarely does a day go by that I do not thank the mountains and wild places for guiding me through those difficult times.
Andrew I hope for the best for you, your wife and especially young Alister.Nov 25, 2022 at 9:10 am #3766203Blase HBPL Member
Andrew, thanks for skillfully and courageously sharing such a taut experience. Parental angst against the backdrop of nature, so visceral. I’m a sucker for happy endings :-).Nov 25, 2022 at 9:17 am #3766204eric lansfordBPL Member
Great story. My heart goes out to you. Life has a way.Nov 26, 2022 at 5:45 pm #3766288Rex SandersBPL Member
Didn’t expect a BPL article to bring tears to my eyes. With beautiful writing, too.
Andrew – you have many gifts. Please keep backpacking, writing, editing, painting, photographing, cultivating a wonderful family – and bringing unforeseen joy to the rest of us.
— RexNov 26, 2022 at 7:16 pm #3766297Josh BBPL Member
@jbalisteriLocale: Western New York
This was a moving read, thank you for articulating your experiences so beautifully. I agree with Rex, continue using your myriad gifts. The photography and paintings are truly stunning, especially the Duck Creek photo and Goats watercolor.
I’ve suffered from moderate to severe panic disorder since I was 14. I empthatize with that struggle deeply.
- You must be logged in to reply to this topic.
Our Community Posts are Moderated
Backpacking Light community posts are moderated and here to foster helpful and positive discussions about lightweight backpacking. Please be mindful of our values and boundaries and review our Community Guidelines prior to posting.